I wonder what it's like to contemplate the vast, largely unknown, incredibly complex and ancient whole of the universe and then quickly reassure myself, "Yep, all of that exists to benefit ME." Not because I want to think that way, but because I want to understand how not to feel so overwhelmed by your own smallness that you round yourself down to zero. Maybe if I could inch even a little bit towards the mistaken belief I'm the center of the Universe, I'd find it easier to wake up and face a reality to which I'm self-consciously helpless.
Also, how do I get more people to follow me and like my posts? Probably by laying off the nihilistic ruminations.
Oh, well! Maybe tomorrow. :D